Tough times…

Well now I haven’t heard from Ardley all day yesterday and not at all today, even though its only half 9 this morning. It hurts but at least it’s helping me move on. And now I’m looking forward to focusing on Uni.

Adrian went to the Ardley house last night and gave the letter to Ardley’s Dad. Apparently Ardley accused me of saying things to him and his friends. Which is hard to hear but I think he is just shifting the blame. Also Adrian heard Ardley say he has ‘moved on’, which I find incredibly difficult to believe when only tuesday I could still run to and he was always there for me. It just seems to have turned nasty because I cancelled my bebo profile. So all I can think is that Ardley is hiding his feelings and keeping the true feelings bottled up, or he just didn’t love me as much as he claimed.

Well today is a new day and although Im still dreaming of him everynight, so in effect he is still the first person I think of when I get up, I have my friends to cater for today, and Sophie will be over shortly so I should get dressed and make myself feel pretty. I can actually wear make-up and do what I want with my hair without Ardley making me feel ugly!

I know there are positives that we aren’t together anymore, I just need to keep reminding myself of them!

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